Day 62:  Choices...

I know what your thinking, that's a random blog picture.  And I have started and re-started this blog post a few times tonight.  When I turned 18, I would have never thought those kind of bottles would have such an effect on my life.  I didn't grow up in a house that seen these bottles often.  Sure, a drink at Christmas or New Years but nothing crazy.

But this past year, the content in the bottles has changed my life in so many ways.  I would have never thought two years ago I would fall in love with someone that had been an addict to alcohol.  I also won't have ever guessed the same person I had loved with all my heart would decide to choose the contents in the bottles over me.  He made a choice which in return made me make a choice.

One friend asked me if I wished I could rewind this past year.  My answer to that question is no, not at all. Even though there has been many tears this past year, I have seen God's hand of protection over me.  I have seen His blessings through the tears.  I have seen him answer my prayers...and sometimes not in the way I though He would but He still did answer them.  I have seen God give me more of a forgiving and loving heart.  And the craziest thing through this all, is daily I still pray that God protects my ex...because the guy that was sober was an amazing guy, full of dreams, wisdom and love.